Been AWOL

Dear readers (do I have any, do I care?)

So how is mindful living going?  I am still living with greater awareness of when I am mindful and when I am not.

Whenever I realise that I have been 'mindless', I am 'back' to being aware, and I don't need to chastise myself or try to work out what has gone wrong.  It is HARD to be mindful for much of the day, especially for me (highly proficient at "splitting off"), however:

Awareness is primary

And must be my top priority over other gigs like fun, popularity/people-pleasing, ignorance, hoping, planning, stressing...

Running on adrenaline - and love-hating it

I have been running around trying to sort out a crisis at work.
Part of me loves it - feeling important, feeling focussed on something, having a challenge, letting boring stuff slide, feeling important!

Part of me doesn't like it, feeling anxious, rushing, feeling hyper-focussed, talking about it too much, needing to feel important.

Writing it down helps.  Shows me how ego-based it is.